the moment i got the news this afternoon, my mind totally went blank.
and the fact tat i dreamt about u just the night before makes everything worse.
i actually cried cos of you, YOU, cos of the minor things u did ...
made me felt closer to you than before, that made me know the real J. (along with 174 other fans)
-at this point of time when im writing, someone's quarrelling damn loudly in BLK290, the girl kept screaming as she's scolding or w/e with a guy in mandarin, damn loud i tell you-
So i actually cried in the afternoon when i read the news, saw pictures of you and the message you wrote.
i listened to 2PM songs again ...
then went for dance prac with some friends... which i thought it'll help in casting you outta my mind for awhile - its painful.
it did help not until i chance upon news bout u leaving Korea, pictures of you were released,
your back, i don't wanna see that back of yours again, your back view is ... just, sad?
and i teared once again. [i shoulda heeded sherwin's advice to go home den read]
how can one ever go to such extreme to dig out someone's past, post some fugly comments of wad that person posted, and diss him/her.
and that HAHAHA LOL ROFL LMAO your happy he/she got diss, so thrilling huh?
it was 4 bloody years ago dammit.
JP just wanted to be successful, to earn some money, to let his mom spend, to make his mom&friends proud of him and etc.
is that too much to ask for?
thanks for destroying his career, dreams and hopes. Your regret is too late. Get a life.
i'm sure he's back now in Seattle, reuniting with his family and friends.
living the life which he's used to before, living the life of Jay Park and not Park JaeBum,
no fucked up netizens [imsorryihadtousevulgarities], no responsibilities as 2PM's leader, no extra workload.
Rest well Jay, it'll be another new beginning, treasure it.
"I will stay healthy in America. I will come back as a better person."
yes, come back as a better person but with the dorky and childish side too, i dun wan any drastic changes on you silly. cos ur awesome like that :')
perhaps wad i typed here aint much, but i just dunno how to express myself in words, wad im feeling now, mixed feelings and all ...
even so, im just a hottests out of other many thousands of hottests around the world.
what can i do?
anyways im going RP again tmr to teach friends on ITNW dance lol...
hopefully i'll be fine tmr and not emo again like today (:
but no right, a sleep can't change the fact that he's not part of 2PM anymore D: